maC's Blog

November Fever!

2005-11-16T23:37:00.001+08:00

Hahahahaha, its almost the middle of november... More assignments and other school related stuffs that should be done soon... Haayyy, pressure pressure! hehe! Anyway, i'm currently reviewing for my quiz in econtwo for tomorrow. Seriously, i cannot understand the lesson because of our prof, so now im wondering if my prof in this course is Dakila? (i think that if she's my prof in my econtwo class it'll be alot better, *sigh*) Well anyway, i just have to review hard for tomorrow's exam, i even sacrificed my ticket for the first day of showing of Harry Potter - the Goblet of Fire just a while ago. And guess what, my friends got us good seats, but ohwell i have to give up my ticket for the exam tomorrow... hayyy... i just hope i'll get a good grade from this one.

Anyway, that'll be it for now, eh? (hahaha!)
Goodluck to me!

The Day You Said Goodnight

2005-06-05T21:32:00.000+08:00

"the day YOU said goodnight... it means a lot. :( "

The song was amazing, most of us can relate to it. So sad....

THE DAY YOU SAID GOODNIGHT
by: HALE

Verse 1:
Take me as you are,
Push me off the road
The sadness,
I need this time to be with you
I'm freezing in the sun,
I'm burning in the rain
The silence;
I'm screaming, calling out your name

Pre-Chorus:
And I do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah, you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what I'll do if we say goodbye...

Chorus:
To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need is time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight

Verse 2:
The calmness in your face
That I see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn't ask me why
I never would have known oblivion is falling down

(Repeat Pre-Chorus)

(Repeat Chorus)

Bridge:
If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be all right

She's already taken,
She's already taken,
She's already taken me...

The day you said goodnight...

The Past two school weeks.

2005-06-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

2 weeks

the past two days has been a 'whoah' thing for me. different subjects to take, different people to meet, but still on the same priorities...

Life is really a rollercoaster. Sometimes you're up sometimes your down; this life that we are taking is very unpredictable. You can't tell which way you're going even if you've planned you're life ahead of time... Even if that we're kinda-like sure of the path that we're going to, there will still be unexpected events that may come our way. So now, i won't waste my time. I'll give sense to it. I'll never give up. I hope that you won't also give up...

A day before classes begin

2005-05-22T00:02:00.000+08:00

"all new."

Whew, vacation is almost over. One day to go and our classes will start, funny but im a little bit excited in getting back at school. Well, maybe or at least makakaalis na rin ako d2 sa bahay namin. Sobrang na-stuck kasi ako d2 sa house for almost the entire summer miski pumunta sa mall bibihira lang, tsk tsk. Anyway miski medyo boring ang summer na 'to for me, at least i've thought of many things and i've refocus myself on what i should be doing come the start of the school year. So un, at least naging productive pa rin kahit papaano yung summer ko, i think sometimes kelangan maging ganun para at least maayos ko naman ung patutunguhan ng buhay ko (naks. hehe). It's passed midnight here, im just the one who is awake in our house... Eto nag iisip pa rin kung paano sisimulan bagong school year: new outlook in life, refocusing myself, getting back on my 'real' priorities... So far yun lang muna...

Gotta sleep, magsisimba pa bukas ng 8.30am.

See you when i see you!

Lord, Lead Me to the Right Path

2005-04-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

"we're experiencing the blop blop thing... [currently disappointed to a lot of things] . [Lord, help me move on] . [gusto ko nang gumraduate] . [its over . . .] .

^^ Those words were my status message now...

A while ago, i was at school for an org meeting and sc workshop. Supposedly, i should go first to the SC workshop but i decided to go first to the Moo Media meeting (org). After the meeting, i met keck at the santugon tambayan para wala lang, hehe. So ayun nag kwentuhan kami, about santugon and stuff and im glad that santugon is aiming for a good start (go keck, go herbert... hehe! la lang.). After that nakita na namin sina Happy and Stan tapos kumain na lang kami sa taco store (bsta ung katabi ng yellow cab...). Ayun nag kwentuhan lang ulit kami, and then KFC and Moksy came. Tapos bumalik na kami sa SC workshop (si keck umuwi na..) and then the afternoon workshop was started by Simoun Ferrer [current vp activities of the student council]. Hehe, la lang ang rami kasing pagbabago sa ovp-act eh especially sa SC as a whole... Well, that's life... I just hope i can move on and re-focus my self on much important things...

"Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow, fall in order to know, lose in order to gain. And sometimes we have to be broken so we can be whole again."

- ron_0506

Reminiscing the Past.

2005-04-10T00:37:00.000+08:00

Santugon GE 2004. Great LEADERS. Great PEOPLE. Thanks for everything, PY!
It's been a year and a half since i transferred from the other party to Santugon. The experience was extremely different [asteeg/ayos/whappaak!!], with a party president like PY [that time] im sure you're also going to be a santugon addict, haha! PY Caunan, my Santugon Sa Tawag ng Panahon PRESIDENT!

The BEST THINGS in life are FREE!

2005-04-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

"it is."

The 'summer 05' edition is coming soon (well, after the course card day) but still hindi pa rin ako nakakaligpit ng mga gamit ko d2 sa house for the school year 2004-2005! Haha. Yeah! this school year has brought me too many stuff here in my room. (Literally!!!) So many things to tidy up in my place... Im going to start packing up and cleaning this place of mine tomorrow. I'll first buy some boxes at price smart so that i can organize my stuff. Anyway, i just watched the world youth day 95 that was held here in manila ten years ago! Whoah! tagal na pala nun... ...i miss the pope. It was so depressing when i also watched the funeral of Pope yesterday, my family even lit a candle for his soul. Pope John Paul II was really a great pope. Imagine! almost all religions and nation leaders came to his funeral to signify unity, whattta pope! He really can be a Saint, well aside from his great deeds he had also made some miracles that the church is now checking if it is real! But im still sad because a pope like him who is very great had died. :(

On monday, may event kami ng HS friends ko... Magkikita kami sa Robinson's or sa G4... It's been a while nung last kaming nagkita... haha! Argee told me na sana lahat kamit makapunta sa monday para masaya!!! Hehe, susunduin nga ako d2 sa bahay ni argee eh, la na kasi kaming driver eh... (kaya dapat matuto na ako mag drive!!! hahaha!) Tapos mamayang 1am maguusap kaming 4 sa YM ng bestest friends ko: argee, michael and david. Si michael ka-school ko ngayon college (dlsu), si argee sa 'teneo(admu) and si david, ayun, iniwan kami d2 sa pinas tsk tsk.. haha! anyway, at least maayos na buhay niya sa states at hindi mainit... at may trabaho na din siya dun... hehe. Asteeg!

And here i am, bitter daw ako. And so what! hindi niyo nga alam pinagdadaanan ko eh. Naks! ang drama.. haha. but seriously, all you guys have no idea kung bakit ako nagkakaganito, you even don't know the feeling of what i feel right now. (labo ba? haha bsta un!) Hayyy... i guess that's life and I really have to accept those challenges. But for now, i have to face the real challenge, and that is facing the academic stage of my life... I have to earn a degree from college and then graduate, and then aral ulit. Tapos start a living... hayyy...
But then, I really have to follow my priorities after setting it. I really need to reach my goal in life. I'm not being selfish, but let's accept the fact that each and everyone of us has his/her personal priorities in life, and as for me, i have to finish it first before anything else. So there.

haha, 1 hour to go before our conference talk with the three of my *bestest* friends. Naks!

Cge.

'till my next blog!
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camvc506 (i'm feeling great!)

2005-04-07T18:24:00.000+08:00

@ Y-Speak Shooting (Live) 4-3-04 [Group pic with Lasallian Ryan Agoncillo]

2005-04-07T18:21:00.000+08:00

@ Y-Speak Shooting (Live) 4-3-04

Fall to Pieces

2005-04-07T18:07:00.000+08:00

"tough times."

I looked away
Then I looked back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today is the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

You're the only one
I'd be with 'til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything
Everything

I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
And I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
'Cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

A New Beginning

2005-04-07T17:52:00.000+08:00

"doin' the right thing."

I just came from school to fix some academic things... Arrrggghhh, nakakainis hindi pa kinukuha ng prof ko ung paper ko na pinass ko nung monday pa sa phole niya. Sabi nila late na at hindi na un kukunin pero wala naman siyang sinabing specific time na ipapasa nung monday, grrrr... Anyway, inayos ko rin yung papers na pinapaayos ni kevin sa amin for ALPHA (soon to be a new org in DLSU. :D). Ayun, sa school nakita ko sila, irene, christine, mcver and louie... Haha nagaaral yung iba at nanggugulo lang kami nila louie, inggit ako sa kanila may finals hehe (first ko kasi ngayon hindi magkaroon ng written finals test eh, puro presentation and paper lang.) Inayos ko rin sched for the next term, (may extended online adjustment kasi) 12 units lang ako kasi mahihirap ang subjects eh and almost paubos na ang floating subjects ko so gagamitin ko na lang un pagdating ng majors ko. Mahirap din kung sasagarin ko sa 18 units yung mga subjects ko ngayon tapos mahihirap pa... (Labo, basta un! hehe.)

Basta sobrang kakaririn ko na ung academics ko next term... Kelangan kong sundin ang policy na "acad first before anything else" hehe. For now yun lang.. hehe.
I'm still in the realization stage and kailangan ko pa ring i-refocus ang ang sarili mula sa mga kahindik hindik na nangyari dati... (naks. hehe!). Binitawag ko na rin yung mga orgs na super hirap ang hahawakan ko, baka rin kasi mapabayaan ko so might as well iba na lang dba!!! :D

Hay... tomorrow na yung burial ni Pope John Paul II... So sad. Dati lang nd2 siya sa Philippines tapos ngayon namatay na siya... He was really a great man!

Anyway, gotta go for now!

Chow!

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camvc0506

::Realization::

2005-04-07T01:21:00.000+08:00

"i have achieved but to no extent..."

For the last few months, many things had taken place... From my academics, extra-curricular to personal problems. This term has been a very tough one for me. Marami akong things na tinake for granted, maraming frustrations at marami ring realizations. Let's start from the top. I think dapat talaga hindi ko masyadong sineryoso or nagdevote ng time sa mga org org eh... What i mean is parang ang nangyari kasi parang iilan lang kaming gumalaw sa org tapos sa aming iilan lang talaga napunta lahat ng burden. Miski magpatulong ako sa iba kung hindi ka mismo 22lungan ng mismong dapat mong kasama parang mahihirapan at mahihirapan ka pa rin. Yes, I thought of quitting and i do believe what my dad told to me na ginagamit lang ako sa org na yun, pero ang inisip ko na lang is someone has believed in me and i am needed by the party, so ayun hindi ko na lang iniisip yung iba kong kasamahan. Inisip ko na lang na this is for the org. But then, hindi pala possible ung inisip ko na miski gawin ko lahat kung hindi naman gagalaw ung mga taong dapat gumalaw, wala din. So sana hindi na lang ako nag bigay ng extra effort. But anyway past is past, pero nakakainis pa rin kasi dahil dun nagkaroon ako ng academic failure na supposedly kaya ko naman talaga ipasa. Sabi nga ng friend ko, dapat i balanced my time between my acads and extra-curricular acts. For me naman, ideally dapat ganun pero iba ung org na pinasok ko especially my position, its like parang trabaho kung trabaho eh, you cannot compare it to other tasks, BELIEVE ME! Super sky-high dapat ang level ng work mo at dapat talaga may quality... +++plus, you need to fill the shoes of others na hindi nag bbgay ng any effort sa dapat na duty nila. Hindi rin kasi ako sanay na may hindi ginagawa ung dapat nilang gawin, so kadalasan npipilitan akong gawin trabaho nila kasi i really want fulfill not only my job but the job of the whole core officers eh...

-Now i realize na wala ring kwenta ang efforts ng isang tao kung yung mismong mga kasama -niya ay walang pakialam or walang dedication sa trabaho.
-I also realize na 'dedication without leadership is a weak foundation.'
-Na dapat nag stick na lang ako sa talagang purpose ko sa school, na dapat eh nagaaral *lang* talaga!
-Na kung may org, wag magpagamit to the extent na iilan na lang kayong gumagawa.
-Na hindi lahat ng tao open-minded at nagiisip ng matino.
-Na sana nagfocus talaga ako sa acads.
-Na sana nakinig na lang ako sa mga taong nag aadvice ng matino sa akin.

Anyway, i have to prepare for the coming school year. Tapos na ang nakaraan, masakit man ngunit kailangan iwanan.

"Lumulubog na ang barko, habang maaga pa gagawa na ako ng paraan para ako'y makaligtas. Pagka't wala rin naman tutulong sa akin para iligtas ang buong barko mula sa pagkakalunod nito, mula sa kailaliman ng karagatan."

I'm going to take the next step of my life, and i'm going to make sure that this step that i'll make will be a better one. 'Mahirap nang mag-bakasakali, mas mabuti nang sigurado ka...' After i make this step, i'm going to think twice or even thrice on the things that i will be doing next. I do not have any room for any more mistakes, and I really have to plan things out so that i can have a better future ahead.

******
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*cam0405 ... signing off!

*cam0506 ... >> COMING SOON! (parang movie. ayos!)
[alphamooba!]

I want to ACHIEVE!

2005-01-14T10:19:00.000+08:00

"should be more than an OC."

A new day has finally come... and take note, it's friday again, what the heck. Well anyway, the last two days has been very productive for my part, i have done many things for a short span of time, and i'm really happy with it. I just hope that everything that i have done and i will be doing will be worth it for the near future... That's all for now. I need first to prepare for school especially for my statistics class... Chow!

It's Nice to be Cool! Wooohoooo!!!

2005-01-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

handa na ba kayo?!

Haha... It's 11:45pm and i want to say that many things had just happened when i was in school... I think i've accomplished most of my "things to do" during the day. After i attended my class (it ended at around 11.40am) i rushed to the registrar to get my EAF and then i payed my tuition and fees, (medyo matagal ko rin hinintay yung receipt... hmmm...) Then as i am walking at the SPS stairs going to the sc to meet Keck (the birthday girl with a *PINK* colored pair of shoes) i saw Rachelle and she told me that Keck was in Shakey's with his "boss". So punta kami dun, and after a while Jiggs unexpectedly arrived hehe saya! Ayun, wala lang usap na kami 2ngkol sa buhay buhay ang pinakamasaya eh yung mga censored stories na kinukwento ni Jiggs sa amin, saya talaga. Tapos ayun, nakausap ko na rin yung MMC people, tapos nakausap ko na rin ung ibang COC Reps at medyo nakukumpleto na sila... Naconfirm ko na rin yung External-DPR ko, so isa na lang ang kulang sa OPEC Upper House! yes!
I hope the things that i am doing will be succesful especially my academics and stuff in Santugon! DERECHO!!! wohhoooo!

Tapos may mga balita pang pasabog before i left in school... I had a news that tapat knows our candidates (as if!!!) (tama ba naman ung mga nahulaan ng tapat??!! har har)...

Anyway, that's all for now. Basta ang saya ng araw na 'to, almost all of the things in my "to do list" has been accomplished! Next stop, meeting tomorrow with MMC, and other people... It's good to know that this day turned out good because yesterday was like hell., arrggghhh... really!!! haha!

Stay Cool! \m/

It "S"ucks

2005-01-04T23:05:00.000+08:00

"tomorrow, i hope, will be a new day."

It was 1:33pm when i arrived at dlsu, specifically in the student council office... I thought i was late for this "meeting" but then again the meeting started after an hour and a half... "tsk tsk tsk." I also thought that the attendance would be complete (except for those na nagsabi na hindi sila makakapunta) but its not, konti lang kami nagpunta, konti lang napagusapan, para bang wala lang. Marami sana akong gusto sabihin dito sa blog na ito tungkol duon pero sabi nga nila **** matter iyon kaya wag na lang... During that time, i also noticed na hindi lang pala ako ang hindi nagbago sa work ethics, kung sila pa-easy easy pa rin, ako naman pessemistic approach pa rin ang tingin ko sa mga bagay na connected sa mga oras na iyon. But then most of my work ethics have changed especially on how i will handle things, ayoko na ung pinaaasa na para bang ginagawa kaming tanga; noon yon, iba na ngayon. Kung alam kong tama ang gagawin ko at makakabuti sa nakararami, edi gawin, gaya nga ng sinabi ko, hindi naman para sa akin ung mga ginagawa ko eh, para sa inyo rin naman ito eh... For now, gagawin ko ang lahat ng makakaya ko para matulungan kayo pero hindi ibig sabihin mananalo tayo, kailangan niyo rin gumalaw... hindi kakayanin ng isang tao ang dalhin ang isang grupo kung ang mga miyembro ng grupo na iyon ay hindi mag eexert ng more than enough effort.
Tapos sasabihin niyo, "bkit ganyan ka magsalita, eh may ginagawa naman kami..." The question is, sapat ba ang mga ginagawa niyo para mapunan ang mga pangangailangan ng grupo, may nagawa bang preparasyon nung mga panahong wala tayong ginagawa? Sa tingin niyo ba sapat na ung preparasyong ginawa niyo nung mga panahong walang ginagawa? Sabi nga nila, "daig ng maagap ang masipag." Miski masipag tayo kung wala namang maagang preparasyon, eh wala ring mangyayari..."
I don't know what else to say pero kinakabahan talaga ako sa mga pwedeng mangyari sa mga susunod na buwan, linggo, at araw... Basta eto lang ang iniisip ko ngayon, "kung walang mga paraphernalia o kung spoa lang ang paraphernalia, sa tingin niyo ba mananalo pa rin tayo ng ganoong karaming kandidato?" Kung ang kabila spoa lang ang paraphernalia at marami rami pa ang naipapanalo what more pa tayo na sobrang raming paraphernalia?... Eto lang ang isipin niyo, halimbawa spoa lang ang paraphernalia, makakaya kaya natin?
I am saying this para pagdating ng katapusan wala tayong hesitations dahil nasabi naman ang dapat sabihin, yun lamang po.

Ang nais ko lang sana ay may pagbabagong maganap, wala akong intensyong manira ngunit yuon ang nakikita ng aking mga mata. Sana lang ngayon, magtulung-tulungan tayo, pare-pareho lang naman ang gusto natin mangyari eh. Alam kong huli na talaga ngunit sana may pagbabago pang maganap; mga pagbabagong 'di lamang pansarili

"Daig pa ng maagap ang taong masipag."

My SacRifice 2004 ~_~

2005-01-04T01:15:00.000+08:00

Hello my friend we meet again
It’s been a while where should we begin...feels like forever
Within my heart are memories of perfect love that you gave to me
Oh, I remember

Chorus:
When you are with me
I feel...I’m careless...i believe
Above all the others we’ll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice

We’ve seen our share of up’s and down’s
Oh, how quickly life can turn around....in an instant
It feels so good to reunite within yourself and within you mind
Let’s find peace there

~chorus~
(I just want to settle again)
I just want to settle again

When you are with me
I feel...I’m careless...i believe
Above all the others we’ll fly
This brings tears to my eyes

~chorus~
My sacrifice

(I just want to settle again)
I just want to settle again

My sacrifice

New Year 2005!!!

2005-01-03T19:43:00.000+08:00

Yeah yeah... Its a new year alright! And i guess this year would be one of my life's major turning point... I really need to finalize decisions that will lead me to a better future, decisions that can somewhat lead to my own betterment. I know that some decisions might hurt me or other people (if there are any) just because i have to close a chapter or two of my life. "Napabayaan ko ang aking sarili dahil sa pagmamahal ko sa mga bagay bagay na mahalaga sa akin. Mga bagay bagay na sa sobrang halaga ay hindi ko naalintana na meron na pala akong mga gawaing hindi nagagampanan, kasama na dun ang sarili ko." Many of you will tell me that it is just a matter of balancing one's priorities, then again i hope that you know what you are saying because you don't know what i am going through right now. "Tao lang po ako, may mga kahinaan (tulad na lamang ng sapat na karunungan na ipinagkaloob sa akin ng Diyos); at pakiramdam na maaring masaktan."

It is now the time to re-asses my self, to re-focus my priorities in life.. I know it is hard for me to close these chapters but this is now a good opportunity to centre my attention to my self again. I dedicated my time to serve others, i do not want recognition, what i only need is support. But that support that i am talking about isn't even for me rather it is for you, for ALL of you... Yes, we all have different responsibilities but we also have a responsibility to each other. We need to support each other but not to bring down one another! I have talked to you once in a while and told you my concerns, and what did you do, you've just backstabbed me. If you have some problems with me, then talk to me, the way i address my concerns to you "madali lang naman ako kausap eh." If i've done things that aren't favorable for you, then please accept my sincerest apology. My intention was not to hurt someone's feelings or to break someone's rule. What i only wanted is just to do my part, to fulfill my duties, and to help others in anything they need.

But then again, the process of making my decision is still "on-going" hoping that i will "bid farewell" to the right group of people that i have been with through the past year...

For now, i just want to start my year with a bang!

Happy New Year everyone!